So why do I need a fresh start right now? I have gotten stuck in a rut. The kind of rut where you stop enjoying your life and are always waiting for something.. waiting for James to get home from work, waiting for Josie's teeth to come in, waiting for this vacation or that vacation, waiting for our next duty station, ect, ect, you know how it goes..
For some reason I have turned my beautiful home into a prison. I started to dread every minute I *had* to spend at home. I've come to realize how dangerous your thoughts can be.. you say something to yourself once or twice, "I'm stuck in this house all day..", "Oh, great. Another day at home.." and soon that's all you think about. I realized this the other day and thought "why do I feel this way?" and to be honest.. I have NO idea. I love my home. I have always been a homebody. When James asks me where I want to go rarely do I even have an answer.
Why is it I always want something more?
So I started examining my life.. what is it that once made me feel so fulfilled? When did I have the most joy? I love my husband and I love my daughter and I love my home and I love living in Hawaii.. what is missing??
Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you
trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of
the Holy Spirit.
Galatians 5:22-23 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience,
kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control...
trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of
the Holy Spirit.
Galatians 5:22-23 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience,
kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control...
So first of all I'm recognizing that Joy comes from the Lord. Someone who I regret to admit hasn't played a very large roll in my life the past few years. Its hard when you are taken away from your spiritual foundation.. my church, my parents, the christian friends I grew up with.. I still believe all the things I grew up believing but without that foundation I'm so accustomed to I have found it very hard to press onward. Not anymore.. I am choosing to be my own rock.. my families rock.. a rock to those around me. With God's help of course.. I'm pressing forward. I will spend more time in prayer and a lot more time studying the bible and through that I do believe that I will find the joy God has for me.
Secondly, I am recognizing joy is a choice. I could cite many many bible verses that urge us to choose to be joyful in all things even when being persecuted. I am certainly not being persecuted in my own home so rejoicing should come easily. I will chose joy.
So that is why I need a fresh start today. I hope this doesnt come across as preachy.. its not my intent. Its just what's going on in my life today.
What about you.. what area's in your life could use a fresh start?
Secondly, I am recognizing joy is a choice. I could cite many many bible verses that urge us to choose to be joyful in all things even when being persecuted. I am certainly not being persecuted in my own home so rejoicing should come easily. I will chose joy.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
So that is why I need a fresh start today. I hope this doesnt come across as preachy.. its not my intent. Its just what's going on in my life today.
What about you.. what area's in your life could use a fresh start?
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